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Sundays…

Sunday: the last day of the weekend, the day you finally feel rested, the day to watch good football and Carte Blanche!

 

Sunday, over the past few weeks has been the day I cry. And for no logical reason. A few Sundays ago, I needed a five minute break before watching Lucifer to go cry in the bathroom, the Sunday after this I cried because Cayleb wasn’t with me for the WHOLE daycry 2 and last Sunday I cried because of the Dial Direct advert, The Voice and the farmers on Carte Blanche. It has become a norm in our home and Mitch has his way of dealing with it (he goes to the lounge and smokes).

 

At first I thought I was pregnant. I am not (Phew!!) Then I thought it was PMS and hormones and it probably was. But it took three weeks, a lot of tears and sleep to realize that it is the anxiety of the week ahead that is building up in me. And the only way it knows how to come out is tears.

 

The start of 2016 has been tough but I didn’t realize how much I am letting it get to me. So I have started preparing for Sundays and ultimately Mondays:

  • I, 100%, familiarize myself with my week ahead on the Friday
  • I make sure the weekend is relaxing as possible
  • I enjoy every moment with Cayleb and Mitch so I can eliminate any guilt immediately
  • I prep for the week in terms of lunches/dinners/homework
  • Shower and get hair done on the Sunday night so Monday mornings are easy

 

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These are small things but they make a big difference in setting the tone for the week. I keep learning new tricks to help the process.  Please let me know if you have any to share…

 

So it is Sunday as I write this and it is nearly 18h00 so how has today been?   Pretty good I would say. I haven’t cried yet.

 

However I am not saying it will not happen because if Liverpool win the Capital One Cup tonight then I know I will cry but for the right reasons.

 

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The sometimes highs and sometimes lows of raising a toddler – #MommyBlog

I’m on the couch, typing this blog after a day that contained moments of absolute bliss, of absolute terror with laughs and cries….

I am sure the moms who read this blog will know exactly what I am talking about.  A day with a toddler does not consist of one emotion but close on a million.  The mood they wake up in does not predict what the day has in stall for you.

I am going through what you can call a bit of a challenging time with Cayleb.  I wouldn’t say he is being naughty but he is pushing the boundaries and boy is he making sure he masters this skill.  I believe (or really hope) it is age appropriate behaviour and not related to the changes that have happened and that are currently happening in his life.  But whatever the reason is I am finding it extremely difficult.

We go from laughing and having so much fun to crying and screaming in less than an hour.  The crying and tantrums are lasting longer but I think this is because I am not giving in to what he wants anymore.  Eventually he starts calming down – Shaun the Sheep and a Cream Soda Milkshake normally helps.  Then it’s all laughs and smiles, hugs and kisses but I promise you it is not even an hour later and another tantrum starts.  These tantrums can last from 5 minutes to up to 45 minutes and can vary from excessive nagging to full on screaming, crying and hitting.  And it is all so unpredictable.

Most the time I feel like a crazy emotional wreck.   As Cayleb’s mood changes so does mine.  I find myself changing from fun mommy to nasty mommy in a split second.  I obviously don’t like this as consistency is very important to me in my life.  I find myself nagging him.  “Cayleb no! Cayleb don’t do that!  Cayleb do this!”  My voice irritates myself sometimes I can just imagine how Cayleb feels.  I laugh, I cry, I feel my blood pressure rise, I feel my heart explode with love, I cry again but now because he is so amazing and I love him so much and so the cycle continues.  By the end of a normal day I find myself emotionally drained.

It is so hard to find a balance.  If I keep saying no I feel like I am restricting him but if I let him do everything and get away with what he wants it is too much freedom and won’t help the situation at all.  All I can say is that I hope this phase is over quickly so I can just be the mother I want to be.

It is amazing to see you grow into a such a handsome big boy. Challenges and all - I love you!!

 

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